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[Desolate]

In all honesty I believe suicide is for the smart in some circumstances. Now I am in no way telling you to kill yourself quite frankly I would advise against it.
But in a world and society like today's I would honestly question you if you didn't consider ending your life from time to time. Shits pretty hard out there mayne

Keep your head up smoke hella weed, hack the planet and fuck bitches lol you'll be fine buddy.

As for the feeling bad about dealing drugs..... as long as you aren't the person who got them addicted to the substance I don't feel as if you should feel bad about yourself in any way.
As a matter of fact you sound like a pretty decent guy, You also sound like you really have no intentions of bringing harm to anyone.
In conclusion if my friend was addicted to say heroin I would much rather someone who seems nice such as yourself sell it to them than some scumbag who may plan to bring harm to them.

[DarkMuse]

Well it seems you've answered your own problem. Stop selling drugs. Educate yourself either through traditional means or through the internet. Find your calling and make something better of yourself. There's nothing wrong with making mistakes but choosing to do them over and over again out of laziness or mindlessness is. There is no excuse for you not to make something better of yourself and your community so just do it!

[Inori]

It's all in the context imo. Hell, I won't lie, I've thought about and even attempted it last June when my life was a giant clusterfuck, but by no means do I recommend suicide as a way out. Whenever I try to talk to people about it, and moreover why people shouldn't, I usually get something along the lines of "people you/they know would be in shock and melancholy," - which is true, don't get me wrong. One of my peers killed himself on my birthday last year and people are still getting over it (in fact, I decided not to have a party or anything out of respect) - but it's a bullshit answer. If you're considering ending your life, other peoples' feelings probably aren't at the top of your list of things to worry about.

Not like I can actually tell you to do anything (and really, how many people listen to 16-year-olds on the internet?), but I'd recommend talking to a professional if you find it's on your mind frequently. As for pushing drugs, as long as you don't stiff or rip off your clients, and you're not the kind of sick fuck that cuts fentanyl or something equally terrifying into your orders, you're just helping people do something safely, illicit or not, that they would most likely do anyway.

Also, know that it's never to late to learn anything. If you want to actively contribute to your community, you can learn absolutely anything from the internet.

[Dismas]

If you're so morally inclined, you probably shouldn't be selling drugs in the first place. You are enabling the addicts, at the end of the day. That being said, you might be a better option than the whacked out dealer across the street. I don't see why you'd want to kill yourself. Find a job that benefits society more, if your current one isn't working for you.

[zorrophreak]

To me, I do believe that suicide is a viable option for some people. In many ways I think that it is an efficient way out, not to mention logical. I wish people wouldn't though.

Take you for example, regardless of your view of your contributions (or lack thereof) to society, you still contribute in some way. With your drug sales, you are merely a piece of a large problem. If you were to stop (and it seems you have moral judgement) then the addicts would still go to others for their fix. With more going to a smaller subset of sellers, then these sellers begin to lose their moral compass and lack care for the product, letting really harmful substances into the wild.

You are contributing in a way by not allowing monopolies to occur in your local drug trade, and since you have morals, you are keeping others from turning to unknown dealers and risking their life (aside from the drugs they are looking for that you sell.)

If you believe it is truly terrible what you do, don't off yourself for it. I've had thoughts such as these as well, that I am not a big contribution to society and that I am in such a whole that it is hard to become a contribution. However, the thought to come back to is that the minor contributions make a difference. Even if small, they do make a difference. Hell, if you want to fix yourself up, think about it. You said it yourself, you make a ton of money from what you are doing now. Use that to promote yourself into a higher contributory position within society. Take some classes, learn some programming languages. Or even try to make a legitimate business out of it. Use this money to buy stuff legally, and sell legally as well. Then begin to diminish your drug sales and once they are done, try your best to distance yourself from former clientele. Use your new business to sustain you.

Its hard to get out of situations, especially when they make you feel worthless and they involve potential harm to others, however it is possible to get out of them without suicide.

If you must do so, don't leave your funds non-existent to be collected. Put them in a trust fund, or donate them to charity, so that you contribute something on your way out.

[Boudica]

I am highly against suicide but not in the sense that it's for the weak or anything. I noticed there's this phrase that pops up whenever somebody talks about suicide - "what's the point?". Often it's said in reference to "what's the point in life" or "what's the point in trying to change" your/their situation. I believe that killing yourself prematurely is even more pointless. While you're alive, there is always opportunity for happiness, whether it feels likely or not, while dead, there are only negative consequences.

My recommendation is that you go immerse yourself in activities you would never normally do. That could be as simple as travelling, trying out a new sport, meeting up with totally new people. It sounds dumb, and likely not interesting, but I cannot even describe in words what a difference new, unexpected experiences make on your level of happiness.

I say this assuming somebody/yourself with thoughts of suicide is not greatly suffering from terminal health problems and so on.

[pvnk]

It will make your future brighter.

[Darkmuseisbae]

I think it depends on the situation at hand.

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If you're so morally inclined, you probably shouldn't be selling drugs in the first place. You are enabling the addicts, at the end of the day. That being said, you might be a better option than the whacked out dealer across the street. I don't see why you'd want to kill yourself. Find a job that benefits society more, if your current one isn't working for you.

That's my problem, I could care less when it comes to morals. I'll admit, I lack morals. However, I just simply think I don't deserve a place in society due to what I do. Although, I do actually provide legitimate, and pure drugs; which is, I assume, better than your other dealers that are cutting their drugs with rat poison, fentanyl and so forth.