The Idea Behind My Signature 03-20-2013, 06:02 AM
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I grew up in a family of 3, my father abandoned my family when I was merely 3 months old. Since then I have no physical memory of him, I do not even know what he looks like. This didn't have any impact on my growth nor will I reap pity out of it like most people do. My mother raised two children on barely anything, and I commend her for that.
Growing up, I was always the popular kid. It all kind of shattered once I hit puberty. When I finally hit puberty, my mind altered.
My paradigms of everything changed so fast, I felt like a new person with days. I reached mental maturity quickly. So? Big deal right, doesn't matter. Well, I thought it didn't matter as well.
I was very religious, closed-minded, silly. I would depend and credit God and Jesus with everything, I was already conditioned to do so. I literally pulled out the problems I deal with out of my head and sacrificed them to God.
I am no longer religious (started questioning religion, was too fearful of God and held back my disbelief for a while, that's for another story) but I am now haunted.
My personality, ego, whatever you want to call it, is comprised of 4 different people. I am 4 different people.
Sometimes all 4 of me talk at the same time in my head, we're all argumentative, but we love each other.
We have Aliis (the evil doer, no remorse, opportunist).
When Aliis takes over, I curse, ridicule, mock, disrespect, steal and make a shame of myself. Aliis is very profound and directed, but on the wrong path.
There's Brandon, what I call "the real me" that is devoted to helping others and bettering himself. Creative, silly, funny, intelligent. When Brandon kicks in, I'm lovely to be around.
There are two others in which I have no names for. My mother named me Brandon, and Aliis is the most talkative voice that named himself.
The other two do not take over me, they just speak in my head.
I used to obey every command Aliis gave me, he's extremely sadistic. The most sadistic internal character you could ever even imagine. But he loves me, so I listen.
He once told me if I didn't remove the plug in my bathtub 13.5 times with a knife, that I would drown in an internal spongey feeling. My thoughts and dreams would be enveloped in spongey material.
I told my mom about it and she said "Don't listen it's just stupid." I was 100% convinced that he was right, but removing something .5 times was impossible.
That night I had a dream that the universe was entirely sponge, the worst nightmare I've ever had. There was no such thing as anything, except the reality of sponge.
Now that I have conquered Aliis, I portray him as sponge and let him bow down to my new ego, Tando.
I grew up in a family of 3, my father abandoned my family when I was merely 3 months old. Since then I have no physical memory of him, I do not even know what he looks like. This didn't have any impact on my growth nor will I reap pity out of it like most people do. My mother raised two children on barely anything, and I commend her for that.
Growing up, I was always the popular kid. It all kind of shattered once I hit puberty. When I finally hit puberty, my mind altered.
My paradigms of everything changed so fast, I felt like a new person with days. I reached mental maturity quickly. So? Big deal right, doesn't matter. Well, I thought it didn't matter as well.
I was very religious, closed-minded, silly. I would depend and credit God and Jesus with everything, I was already conditioned to do so. I literally pulled out the problems I deal with out of my head and sacrificed them to God.
I am no longer religious (started questioning religion, was too fearful of God and held back my disbelief for a while, that's for another story) but I am now haunted.
My personality, ego, whatever you want to call it, is comprised of 4 different people. I am 4 different people.
Sometimes all 4 of me talk at the same time in my head, we're all argumentative, but we love each other.
We have Aliis (the evil doer, no remorse, opportunist).
When Aliis takes over, I curse, ridicule, mock, disrespect, steal and make a shame of myself. Aliis is very profound and directed, but on the wrong path.
There's Brandon, what I call "the real me" that is devoted to helping others and bettering himself. Creative, silly, funny, intelligent. When Brandon kicks in, I'm lovely to be around.
There are two others in which I have no names for. My mother named me Brandon, and Aliis is the most talkative voice that named himself.
The other two do not take over me, they just speak in my head.
I used to obey every command Aliis gave me, he's extremely sadistic. The most sadistic internal character you could ever even imagine. But he loves me, so I listen.
He once told me if I didn't remove the plug in my bathtub 13.5 times with a knife, that I would drown in an internal spongey feeling. My thoughts and dreams would be enveloped in spongey material.
I told my mom about it and she said "Don't listen it's just stupid." I was 100% convinced that he was right, but removing something .5 times was impossible.
That night I had a dream that the universe was entirely sponge, the worst nightmare I've ever had. There was no such thing as anything, except the reality of sponge.
Now that I have conquered Aliis, I portray him as sponge and let him bow down to my new ego, Tando.
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