[mothered]

there are also people who present themselves as peaceful, loving as possible and then do just the opposite of it.

I've come across many people of that nature and to this day, I still experience the same.

Those unbeknownst to you, should not be taken at face value.

[bananagio]

Don't worry I am not evil. I was just addicted to it. Even if I love the loyalty and dedication of the repulsive woman I fuck, I pretend to not love her for excitement. I present myself as if I would exploit her just to test her loyalty, not more. Once I owned an old woman to supposedly abuse financially. I ordered her to give away all her money to me. She truly did that to my surprise. She past the test.  And I transferred twice more of the some money back into her account as reward of her dedication. You can be as manipulative as you want in your imagination, so long as you don't act on those thoughts.  Okay, if you don't mind going too wild in fantasy realm, I am keeping to write.

Is it only me who fantasizes about raping, enslaving ugly women? Once you make them addicted to you, you can exploit them even financially too. Does this show that I am pragmatic? Hell, No. I actually don't need her money. I just wanna increase the excitement I take from the relationship. I have ever experienced such an thing before. I like the idea of being the top guy with superior genes penetrating his holistically inferior women. I wanna fuck her from every possible aspect. With my mind, with my dick, with my sarcastic words, with my despising look, with my fingers, and sometimes, even with my feet. lol.
I love the difference of the level of attractiveness and intelligence between us. But she needs to have, at least, average intelligence. It would be really boring to fuck something that can not talk expressively since you would like your toy to compliment you impressively while both insulting and fucking her. I don't feel anything when I come across attractive women. If I don't feel superior enough, I can't enjoy the relationship. She needs to be as ugly as possible. I don't know. Maybe, a woman of African descent or an Aborginian girl -well, it is quite hard to call such a person girl. they look like old women. even worse than that. hahahaha. By the way, I am not interested in repulsively old women not because I am disgusted by them but because they tend to be visually impaired. She needs to be able see the difference in our attractiveness level. She must serve my handsomeness and high intelligence. She always needs to be intellectually below me so she will be intelligent at a level where the only thing she will fiercely be exited most by will always be my intellectual superiority. She needs to have, at least, some verbal intelligence but not at a level that she can question my authority. Specialization is for insects. So there is no reason to not encourage her to do your errands because your time is more precious. She will simply specialize in becoming a doormat. I don't know. Doing your boring chores, cleaning, washing your dishes, washing your boxers etc. You will feed your pet the remnants of what you eat as a reward. Attaching a chastity belt to her cunt would also make her brain run faster in the long term so she can always find better ways to be a better slave for you. If she gets all jobs done well enough, you'll give her the privilege of kissing the bottom of your feet as the most rewarding experience. If she finally transforms into a multiple-purpose device, you'll no longer deprive her of the pleasure of being fucked by your sacred dick. She past the test. The higher levels of her progressively being degraded up to a fully-fledged true slave will happen too.

To be continued.

i see what you mean but its disgusting, seek professional help through therapy, it sounds like your insecure and evil at the same time - not judging just pointing out the obvious

[HypnoticMagician]

Don't worry I am not evil. I was just addicted to it. Even if I love the loyalty and dedication of the repulsive woman I fuck, I pretend to not love her for excitement. I present myself as if I would exploit her just to test her loyalty, not more. Once I owned an old woman to supposedly abuse financially. I ordered her to give away all her money to me. She truly did that to my surprise. She past the test.  And I transferred twice more of the some money back into her account as reward of her dedication. You can be as manipulative as you want in your imagination, so long as you don't act on those thoughts.  Okay, if you don't mind going too wild in fantasy realm, I am keeping to write.

Is it only me who fantasizes about raping, enslaving ugly women? Once you make them addicted to you, you can exploit them even financially too. Does this show that I am pragmatic? Hell, No. I actually don't need her money. I just wanna increase the excitement I take from the relationship. I have ever experienced such an thing before. I like the idea of being the top guy with superior genes penetrating his holistically inferior women. I wanna fuck her from every possible aspect. With my mind, with my dick, with my sarcastic words, with my despising look, with my fingers, and sometimes, even with my feet. lol.
I love the difference of the level of attractiveness and intelligence between us. But she needs to have, at least, average intelligence. It would be really boring to fuck something that can not talk expressively since you would like your toy to compliment you impressively while both insulting and fucking her. I don't feel anything when I come across attractive women. If I don't feel superior enough, I can't enjoy the relationship. She needs to be as ugly as possible. I don't know. Maybe, a woman of African descent or an Aborginian girl -well, it is quite hard to call such a person girl. they look like old women. even worse than that. hahahaha. By the way, I am not interested in repulsively old women not because I am disgusted by them but because they tend to be visually impaired. She needs to be able see the difference in our attractiveness level. She must serve my handsomeness and high intelligence. She always needs to be intellectually below me so she will be intelligent at a level where the only thing she will fiercely be exited most by will always be my intellectual superiority. She needs to have, at least, some verbal intelligence but not at a level that she can question my authority. Specialization is for insects. So there is no reason to not encourage her to do your errands because your time is more precious. She will simply specialize in becoming a doormat. I don't know. Doing your boring chores, cleaning, washing your dishes, washing your boxers etc. You will feed your pet the remnants of what you eat as a reward. Attaching a chastity belt to her cunt would also make her brain run faster in the long term so she can always find better ways to be a better slave for you. If she gets all jobs done well enough, you'll give her the privilege of kissing the bottom of your feet as the most rewarding experience. If she finally transforms into a multiple-purpose device, you'll no longer deprive her of the pleasure of being fucked by your sacred dick. She past the test. The higher levels of her progressively being degraded up to a fully-fledged true slave will happen too.

To be continued.

i see what you mean but its disgusting, seek professional help through therapy, it sounds like your insecure and evil at the same time - not judging just pointing out the obvious

Since I understood the root of all my suffering is my ego/separation/the notion of "other", I give up dark spirituality also known as left hand path. There is no way to become enlightened without killing the ego. That's like trying to take care of a person without feeling compassion for her. Or trying to drive a car with the brakes on. I am no longer gonna abuse anyone. Once I understood the terrible ramifications of left hand path and the logic of oneness, there is no turning back.

[Skullmeat]

There's nothing to be gained long term from manipulating someone. In the end, it will eventually come back at you, once people realize you're a piece of shit.

[mothered]

There's nothing to be gained long term from manipulating someone.

In the context described by the OP, there's nothing to be gained at all.

In the end, it will eventually come back at you, once people realize you're a piece of shit.

^ Nailed It.

[bananagio]

Don't worry I am not evil. I was just addicted to it. Even if I love the loyalty and dedication of the repulsive woman I fuck, I pretend to not love her for excitement. I present myself as if I would exploit her just to test her loyalty, not more. Once I owned an old woman to supposedly abuse financially. I ordered her to give away all her money to me. She truly did that to my surprise. She past the test.  And I transferred twice more of the some money back into her account as reward of her dedication. You can be as manipulative as you want in your imagination, so long as you don't act on those thoughts.  Okay, if you don't mind going too wild in fantasy realm, I am keeping to write.

Is it only me who fantasizes about raping, enslaving ugly women? Once you make them addicted to you, you can exploit them even financially too. Does this show that I am pragmatic? Hell, No. I actually don't need her money. I just wanna increase the excitement I take from the relationship. I have ever experienced such an thing before. I like the idea of being the top guy with superior genes penetrating his holistically inferior women. I wanna fuck her from every possible aspect. With my mind, with my dick, with my sarcastic words, with my despising look, with my fingers, and sometimes, even with my feet. lol.
I love the difference of the level of attractiveness and intelligence between us. But she needs to have, at least, average intelligence. It would be really boring to fuck something that can not talk expressively since you would like your toy to compliment you impressively while both insulting and fucking her. I don't feel anything when I come across attractive women. If I don't feel superior enough, I can't enjoy the relationship. She needs to be as ugly as possible. I don't know. Maybe, a woman of African descent or an Aborginian girl -well, it is quite hard to call such a person girl. they look like old women. even worse than that. hahahaha. By the way, I am not interested in repulsively old women not because I am disgusted by them but because they tend to be visually impaired. She needs to be able see the difference in our attractiveness level. She must serve my handsomeness and high intelligence. She always needs to be intellectually below me so she will be intelligent at a level where the only thing she will fiercely be exited most by will always be my intellectual superiority. She needs to have, at least, some verbal intelligence but not at a level that she can question my authority. Specialization is for insects. So there is no reason to not encourage her to do your errands because your time is more precious. She will simply specialize in becoming a doormat. I don't know. Doing your boring chores, cleaning, washing your dishes, washing your boxers etc. You will feed your pet the remnants of what you eat as a reward. Attaching a chastity belt to her cunt would also make her brain run faster in the long term so she can always find better ways to be a better slave for you. If she gets all jobs done well enough, you'll give her the privilege of kissing the bottom of your feet as the most rewarding experience. If she finally transforms into a multiple-purpose device, you'll no longer deprive her of the pleasure of being fucked by your sacred dick. She past the test. The higher levels of her progressively being degraded up to a fully-fledged true slave will happen too.

To be continued.

i see what you mean but its disgusting, seek professional help through therapy, it sounds like your insecure and evil at the same time - not judging just pointing out the obvious

Since I understood the root of all my suffering is my ego/separation/the notion of "other", I give up dark spirituality also known as left hand path. There is no way to become enlightened without killing the ego. That's like trying to take care of a person without feeling compassion for her.  Or trying to drive a car with the brakes on. I am no longer gonna abuse anyone. Once I understood the terrible ramifications of left hand path and the logic of oneness, there is no turning back.

if your saying you will stop doing this then good for you, why dont you put all the energy into a healthy/loving realtionship with a woman you "like" instead of an ugly woman, all i can see is that your insecure and to make yourself seem like your better, you go out and manipulate ""ugly women"" which are ugly to you

hope you understand that at one point in your life the guilt will come up and it will "kill" you from the inside knowing you was an evil person driven by your insecurites

[HypnoticMagician]

i see what you mean but its disgusting, seek professional help through therapy, it sounds like your insecure and evil at the same time - not judging just pointing out the obvious

Since I understood the root of all my suffering is my ego/separation/the notion of "other", I give up dark spirituality also known as left hand path. There is no way to become enlightened without killing the ego. That's like trying to take care of a person without feeling compassion for her.  Or trying to drive a car with the brakes on. I am no longer gonna abuse anyone. Once I understood the terrible ramifications of left hand path and the logic of oneness, there is no turning back.

if your saying you will stop doing this then good for you, why dont you put all the energy into a healthy/loving realtionship with a woman you "like" instead of an ugly woman, all i can see is that your insecure and to make yourself seem like your better, you go out and manipulate ""ugly women"" which are ugly to you

hope you understand that at one point in your life the guilt will come up and it will "kill" you from the inside knowing you was an evil person driven by your insecurites

I not that sinful at all. It is coming from my old traumas. I just wanted to apply what I want done to me when I was submissive. I fantasized a lot about a very beautiful lady recognizing my disfigured face and taking advantage of this visual attractiveness difference between us. Seducing me to serve her beauty, abusing me this way. Because it has been long since I discovered my dominant side, I just wanted to apply this too to an innocent, dumb looking woman to take all my frustrations on. I was simply convinced that life is brutal, the only way to reach a heavenly life fast is to kill your conscience, sacrifice supposedly sleeping empaths so you reach a fulfilling life more quickly. Very retarded reasoning, indeed.

[Skullmeat]

Since I understood the root of all my suffering is my ego/separation/the notion of "other", I give up dark spirituality also known as left hand path. There is no way to become enlightened without killing the ego. That's like trying to take care of a person without feeling compassion for her.  Or trying to drive a car with the brakes on. I am no longer gonna abuse anyone. Once I understood the terrible ramifications of left hand path and the logic of oneness, there is no turning back.

if your saying you will stop doing this then good for you, why dont you put all the energy into a healthy/loving realtionship with a woman you "like" instead of an ugly woman, all i can see is that your insecure and to make yourself seem like your better, you go out and manipulate ""ugly women"" which are ugly to you

hope you understand that at one point in your life the guilt will come up and it will "kill" you from the inside knowing you was an evil person driven by your insecurites

I not that sinful at all. It is coming from my old traumas. I just wanted to apply what I want done to me when I was submissive. I fantasized a lot about a very beautiful lady recognizing my disfigured face and taking advantage of this visual attractiveness difference between us. Seducing me to serve her beauty, abusing me this way. Because it has been long since I discovered my dominant side, I just wanted to apply this too to an innocent, dumb looking woman to take all my frustrations on. I was simply convinced that life is brutal, the only way to reach a heavenly life fast is to kill your conscience, sacrifice supposedly sleeping empaths so you reach a fulfilling life more quickly. Very retarded reasoning, indeed.

Your personal traumas are not an excuse to emotionally abuse others, no matter how much you want them to be. Ive had my own traumas, but I've made my peace with them. "Weak people revenge, the strong forgive, and the intelligent ignore." - Albert Eisenstein

[mothered]

This has become rather Intense, hence I've moved It from the Sexual forum to Serious Discussion.

[scargo]

well yeah, ugly woman make easy target, i have seen it a lot