[LawDogUSA]

The meds are stereotyped. You can't say that they are addictive or lead to taking more meds. I agree with "Mothered" there is absolutely nothing for you to loose bro. Getting the right ones, and dialed in, can completely change your life.

Those commercials are crap. I know there are a million types out there, but how do you know that the right ones, and right doses, may be miraculous for you. And another thing, it's a myth you have to be on them forever. Maybe they help you deal with the issues, and once you realize that the issues are corrected or overcome, the medicine may not be even necessary anymore. You start training your body, lifestyle, and that brilliant mind of yours, the next thing you know, you are conquering all life's challenges on your own and the issues aren't issues any more cause you know how to handle them on your own.

A huge part of dealing with the mental health in life, is actually learning simple skills like "grounding" and many others. An example for me:. I rotated 12 hour shifts (am & pm)/different time zones, every month changed for over 15 years. My sleep schedule and even my psychological state, was so fucked up when I tried to get back to normal, up during the day and sleep at night. I had no clue how bad I was until I started forgetting memories, and even though I thought I slept, I wasn't, and I would get so bad, I would try to eat and miss my mouth, and not even know it.

I didn't want to admit it, but that's fucked up. A few meds to help, sleep/relax and some mood stabilizers. I started sleeping normal, acting normal, feeling a million times better. Next thing I'm off the meds (have some on hand in case) and normal sleep patterns are trained back and things are good, maybe not perfect, but much better. Nothing wrong with that.

Now, honestly, I have done a lot of crazy things in my career, dealt with some of the most bizzare things, etc. I have been on and off a few meds, I don't care, they made me better. There's all kinds of meds from helping you focus to helping you socialize.

You said one of the best things: you like your doctor. Absolutely fantastic. That's a huge source for your success.

Just to ask, and if you don't want to answer that's cool, what is it that you want to do or like to do that you aren't accomplishing mentally?

You have a doctor, you have some good friends, you like some computer stuff, you like Sinisterly (here), and sounds like you sleep well. How about eating and some exercise. Are you eating a few meals a day, and any simple excerise (like how about walking, throw some headphones on listen to some music or some podcasts on coding, etc). You have all that and you are a ton better than most people. How does your mind feel, does it relax, can you shut it down, does it run always, are you worrying? I know you led towards depression, but if there are reasons, the doc can help with that.

I know it sucks sometimes, I can't even get out of bed sometimes, but you are still doing good in some areas, and it seems you are doing fantastic at coding and being on here. I read your posts, and see a ton of brilliance and dedication. Some days I would be happy just to read my emails.

One more thing:. You are not alone, you are never alone. From what I see there's a lot of people here that care, you have some friends who care, a doctor who cares, sounds like your Father cares, and you got this goofy guy who types to much and puts half the people to sleep, here nicknamed G, who cares. We are all here and will continue to do what we can. So let me know anything you want or if there's more I can do. Stay strong, because you are strong, brilliant, and brave.

We are in this together!

PS:. I sent you a PM too.