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After carefully reading your opening post, there seems to be an underlying condition (or two), that's triggering Instability with your emotions.

Has your psychologist performed tests for clinical depression, and/or any form of anxiety disorder? It's all well and good to suggest what we believe will Improve your well-being, but unless the root of the cause Is Identified, It can be a difficult process to overcome the said Issues.

i did have tests for anxiety disorder and clinical depression, im not anxious, but i just say im not able to do something or even me thinking that it woudnt change anything if it was me, so i just leave it

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I reccomend

Doing some work outs, jogging in place, sit ups, push ups.

Listen to some long audio-books, such as Lord of the Rings, Bible Audiobook, or Nature Documentaries.

If you actually want to improve your situation I suggest you research cures to combat the COVID19 such as find anivirals or antibodies effective against SARS-Cov and how to mass produce them.

i do not have enough space. i prefer going outside
researching infofmation about the pandemic isnt going to help much since it is becoming worst and worst in the uk

I find it amusing that your reasoning for not researching cures, antivirals and antibodies, wasn't "I'm not a scientist and I don't have a multi-million pound lab", but that it's getting worse in the UK (PS it's actually just starting to turn in many parts, if you heard the governments announcements yesterday).

Of the suggestions on this thread, that was rather out there xD