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After carefully reading your opening post, there seems to be an underlying condition (or two), that's triggering Instability with your emotions.

Has your psychologist performed tests for clinical depression, and/or any form of anxiety disorder? It's all well and good to suggest what we believe will Improve your well-being, but unless the root of the cause Is Identified, It can be a difficult process to overcome the said Issues.

i did have tests for anxiety disorder and clinical depression, im not anxious, but i just say im not able to do something or even me thinking that it woudnt change anything if it was me, so i just leave it

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I reccomend

Doing some work outs, jogging in place, sit ups, push ups.

Listen to some long audio-books, such as Lord of the Rings, Bible Audiobook, or Nature Documentaries.

If you actually want to improve your situation I suggest you research cures to combat the COVID19 such as find anivirals or antibodies effective against SARS-Cov and how to mass produce them.

i do not have enough space. i prefer going outside
researching infofmation about the pandemic isnt going to help much since it is becoming worst and worst in the uk