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true, emltions cant really be expressed through texting, this is also why emojis exists, but they're more used ironically instead of being genuine. I will try to call her in the next following days.

by the way, i've called a friend and i talked about my current situation (basically what i said in the 1st post of this thread) and she was very supportive and gave me a few creative activities which i can do by myself and sent me some memes where i sadly was too negative and told me directly that im too negative and quite toxic to others and online content, which is true since i find a memes not funny, im going to criticise the person who made it and (for example) that hes a fucking retard and should get a fucking job, the person that sent me the meme would just get shittalked on. Which i find actually quite funny.

thanks for both of you's for replying to this thread, it really helps me ^D^

It's great to read that you've made the decision to call your psychologist.

Talking about your feelings and more Importantly, being "honest and upfront" with your emotions, will significantly help your psychologist to determine the root/cause of why you're feeling and experiencing the Issues mentioned.

i will call my psycologist in a few days due to easter, ive called a friend instead, ill ask if my friend would like to talk to her to help me be better

Excellent.

I wish you all the very best with sorting everything out. It won't happen overnight but rest assured, with a little hard work, you'll get there In the end.