[Boudica]

It sounds like you're going through a really rough time. Sorry to hear that.

I would recommend changing your title to something other than 'option s' - As that doesn't seem to indicate what your thread is about in any way that I can tell. You could also break up the text and fix some typos for an easier read, to encourage replies. I also noticed you didn't appear to have any questions - Is there something you wanted others to comment on specifically? Were you looking for advice?