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I wonder if a functional medicine doctor may be better for you, although there may be limited access to such doctors where you are? Functional medicine usually bypasses those issues and also aims to treat problems directly through body functioning as opposed to symptom management. Taking any kind of drug (anti-depressants or other prescribed medicines) can have other side effects. Sometimes they are worth it, and there may not be a better alternative. But other times parts of your body end up depending on it and are unable to function as they should when you take the drug away. If you're able to reach a functional medicine doctor, I would highly recommend it.

Anyway, It sounds like you've come upon some very hard times, and I certainly hope you are able to get to a place of peace sooner rather than later.