[Mr.Kurd]

Yeah suicide is for the weak, because our life is exam for us someone will success and some will fail.
Life is full of troubles, problems and pains but this all will make you stronger and more complete person, If you were positive you will think to life troubles like a tools that make us stronger, but If you were negative actually you are going to suicide yourself.
The positive/strong people will look to life like a games.
if you tried your best you will success and you will reach the point which you want but if you stop looking forward to others or thinking of pains you will fail in the start and you won't have time to think of yourself.
I hope you don't think of killing yourself, take a life easy and look at life like a exam that make you stronger, All of us have his/her own pains but we have to be positive and laughing at troubles "Say I'm stronger".
See if you go to Gym every day, you will get strong body, so life is same.
And always pray and call Allah to help you:-
The Prophet Muhammad (saws) said, Allah the
most high said, ‘I am as my servant
thinks (expects) I am. I am with him
when he mentions Me. If he mentions
Me to himself, I mention him to
Myself; and if he mentions Me in an assembly, I mention him in an
assembly greater than it. If he draws
near to me a hand’s length, I draw
near to him an arm’s length. And if
he comes to Me walking, I go to him
at speed. [Bukhari].
So Allah always with you ask him and will help you.
Best wishes.