[zorrophreak]

To me, I do believe that suicide is a viable option for some people. In many ways I think that it is an efficient way out, not to mention logical. I wish people wouldn't though.

Take you for example, regardless of your view of your contributions (or lack thereof) to society, you still contribute in some way. With your drug sales, you are merely a piece of a large problem. If you were to stop (and it seems you have moral judgement) then the addicts would still go to others for their fix. With more going to a smaller subset of sellers, then these sellers begin to lose their moral compass and lack care for the product, letting really harmful substances into the wild.

You are contributing in a way by not allowing monopolies to occur in your local drug trade, and since you have morals, you are keeping others from turning to unknown dealers and risking their life (aside from the drugs they are looking for that you sell.)

If you believe it is truly terrible what you do, don't off yourself for it. I've had thoughts such as these as well, that I am not a big contribution to society and that I am in such a whole that it is hard to become a contribution. However, the thought to come back to is that the minor contributions make a difference. Even if small, they do make a difference. Hell, if you want to fix yourself up, think about it. You said it yourself, you make a ton of money from what you are doing now. Use that to promote yourself into a higher contributory position within society. Take some classes, learn some programming languages. Or even try to make a legitimate business out of it. Use this money to buy stuff legally, and sell legally as well. Then begin to diminish your drug sales and once they are done, try your best to distance yourself from former clientele. Use your new business to sustain you.

Its hard to get out of situations, especially when they make you feel worthless and they involve potential harm to others, however it is possible to get out of them without suicide.

If you must do so, don't leave your funds non-existent to be collected. Put them in a trust fund, or donate them to charity, so that you contribute something on your way out.