[Earthling]

1. I volunteer in the emergency service, and when I get home from different rescues etc, I get treated like shit by my family and their friends...

2. I have an anxiety issue which makes me very anxious during many things..

Sometimes I just want to die / kill myself!

I'm so sorry to hear that your family and friends aren't treating you right. We'll be here for you if you need someone to talk to or anything else. As a family.