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Last week, my girlfriend & I had a fight ..nothing big, just enough to the point that it stood in the back of the mind what was said. Everything on both parts, was of course out of anger, but nonetheless they were on the table.

Well, with my wonderful luck & timing, I ended up having to leave for a little less than a week. Well in this time, as much as I tried to see her, I couldn't. I had to be at my grandmother's to make plans for us to move back to Pennsylvania, & get the tickets and what not. In this "week", she gathered some conclusion ..what conclusion? Well that's why I'm here..

The last thing she said was "I love you, baby. I'll see you Monday", well Monday came, I texted her saying I'd be another day but I'd be home in the morning ..this was last night. This morning, she gets around to texting me back; "Patrick, I had to leave. I'm on the plane now. Goodbye."


..What the hell happened? I mean I understand in the midst of absence, the mind wanders ..but what did she think I was doing that would take her to the lengths of just up & leaving everything we built together? ..why would she ignore me throughout the whole planning period? Another guy maybe? ..I don't know what to think, but I had to go to my apartment today, & face that she was gone ..no note (she always left me notes before she'd go anywhere just to be cute), no sign. It was her birthday last week too ..I got her flowers, balloons, a camera, a cake, some new shot glasses, & a card that I had written her a song & note in ...I walked in and found ALL this still where it was. Not even touched since I surprised her. When she came home to it, of course we got "distracted" & didn't do too much to enjoying her gifts, (except for one. [; lol) but she seemed so happy. She seemed like she loved me, she loved the camera, she wanted it for christmas & I just didn't have the money.

I don't know, guys, but I'm devastated, so in advance I apologize if my mood taints my post quality here, however, I miss her more now..

I don't know what to do.. how to cope.. what's going to happen? She took our money for the flight, so now I'm officially homeless. Luckily I have my grandmother, but she's moving back to PA next week too, which leaves me ..homeless, with no money for a flight back home to PA. Advice anyone?