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I'm the same. Recently with the streak of getting a new job and meeting some new people, some days are worth having.

Occasionally I slide down the no fucks given route and visit the dark black hole I was in about a year ago. Again, I've never been diagnosed as depressed but people tell me I could be a sufferer.

My drug use has grown stronger recently. Maybe I'm pretending I'm okay but maybe I'm still in that dark black hole. I go through phases of being extremely hyper to really low. Similar to ADHD when I'm hyper.

I'll try not to over analyse myself but I think about the things that have happened and it sends me down a bad route. I use drugs to take me away. Getting a job however, having my own money and bring able to do the things I couldn't has certainly helped. Or maybe it hasn't.

Sounds more like maniac-depression( bipolar ) than anything else.