[Blue]

Let me say what Oni hinted at, but is too kind to say.

Find a new girl. This one doesn't like you. There's literally billions of others, one of them is bound to suit your fancy. Until then, just have lots of meaningless sex like everyone else.

Yes of course I will do that. But I prefer to stay out of a relationship to do that. Sure I have a lot of " friends with benefits. " some that have boyfriends. I have plenty of girls I can bang. But that is not the point. I live in a small southern town. I mean serious? No girls around here that I find cute and like at the same time live around here. She was the only girl. She is like an open book. I love that. I miss her. I mean, I have moved on but she is always in the back of my mind. I have had like 4 girlfriends after her. But non of them are her. I broke up with her a week before I was going to her house on thanksgiving. I can't believe I did that. I was immature and stupid.