[Kureo]

I took the test you gave out in the opening post, here's the result if you're interested: [ Test Results ]

I can't really say that I am surprised based on those results, though I still mean they are faulty. The reason I am not surprised is mainly because I've visited 2 Psychiatrists and both of them have pointed out that I show great traits of depression. Though I replied to them that its not depression, rather curiosity and logical thinking. Of course they blamed my answer as denial of depression. ( Though I still mean that is wrong ) I've, since I was young tried to attain full control over my mental state, and I am getting close each passing year that goes by. I've never really though of an emotion in a negative way, nor do I feel anything towards what most people would call a "touching subject" unless I chose so myself. By that I mean, that I discard or ignore an feeling which I see as useless or annoying at the give time. ( To this point, the only thing I am not able to fully ignore is intense pain. )

I've felt true despair, hatred, sorrow and I've felt the essence of death by myself. I have been at what people would call the edge and I have been rather close to taking my own life, though I am a terrible loser and killing myself would mean that I'll lose. Something which I don't like, so I sat down, though about it and figured out the best way to not lose. Most people either call me a fraud or bluntly say that I am lying if I tell someone about that, mainly because most people don't think of me that way.. Anyhow, the point is that too me depression and to give in on it is a loss, a loss which is not acceptable for me and I will not let anyone lose that way easily either. Which is mainly the reason I dislike seeing someone sad, and I also get a little upset when someone comments that I don't know how it feels.

For those of you who claim that depression at a certain level is not something you can come over by yourself, I will bluntly say that you are wrong. It really depends on the person, a person is fully able to overcome any obstacle they self wish to cross. Its all a matter of mental control and willpower to do so, I am also aware as I said that this only goes for a certain amount of people. While the rest can't do it without help from someone else.