[The High Roller]

Is there a way to get rid of the thoughts of death. I've been inhaling butane and every time I stare (high) at the mirror I see myself in the middle of death lying down on the tile floor crying.
I then think of myself entering hell and wishing I had never touched drugs before.

This obviously is very bad for my health, I know. But I can't sleep if I think of death, is there a solution?

Yeah try and channel this into another form or attemp to get your mind off the shit your on. Like I channel my food habbits by smoking...I eat less when I smoke. I dont smoke I munch down like a mofo...wouldnt matter because I can't gain weight. Try and channel this to something like a hobby, and cut loose any friends that have the drug habbits to, that will help, well might not have to cut them loose just dont be around when they do it.

God, if only it was easy. Inhalants are so addicting because they are so damn fun!
I'll just do it one more time tomorrow morning, trip out insanely then quit for a couple of years. By then I might convert to something less harmful like LSD, or magic mushrooms.