[Drako]

Have you considered using psychedelics for treatment? Of course, you shouldn't self-medicate. Especially with psychedelics. If you aren't in the correct headspace, you could make your depression worse, and it may even increase suicidal thoughts. You should look out for clinical trials instead. That way you can be monitored by professionals.

I strongly recommend against phychedelics. They are very few people who benefit from such a thing. Psychedelics simply do not have any effect on most people. They reach same insights. They still talk about the already existing same information inside their head. Claiming they have made contact with a "spiritual entity" or reached "god recognition".  And most of those who overdose phychedelics just because they don't have any effect at first end up being  hospitalized. So what's the point?
I don't think this psychedelics thing benefits you this much. When you examine people with high IQ, for example, you realize none of them are taking anything like a special drug, be it psychedelics or any supplement at all. What does that mean? That means you are just doing something else wrong. You need to find that thing. Of course, it will take a lot of time and effort. Nothing hard is easy to achieve. Very similar to the process of gaining muscle. It will be very painful at first. It will be very difficult to lift even the lightest weights. But you need more patience and perseverance. Otherwise, If you keep thinking like this, constantly trying to reach perfect results without putting sufficient effort into it, you will not be able to arrive anywhere. There is no short-cut. At least, not possible when you consider today's primitive advancement of technology when compared with what artificial general intelligence could achieve once found.

@DedSpace
The things I have mentioned above is also valid for you.

Okay, you have to understand that psychedelics are unlike any man-made medication. And for most people, that's their last option for recovering from an illness that can lead to suicide. It has provided many addicts and depression patients relief or even a cure from their illness, even though they may have been unresponsive to previous treatments.

And I'm not sure what you're on about when you say "overdose." It is nearly impossible to overdose on any psychedelic. Even if you're a new user who refuses to do any research on dosage and just decides to take a wild amount of a psychedelic, like three tabs of LSD, you won't overdose. You'll feel extremely strong effects, but no overdose. That's why I said look for clinical trials. That'll guarantee your safety.