[fi3ld]

Don't be controlled by thought of "you" about yourself.
Wether you have this illusion called self-esteem, or not.
you're still gonna be yourself with same talents, skillset,... .
chasing self-esteem, is just enriching the idea of identity, which eventually make you emprisoned in it.
Instead, unleash that identity, be free. Allow yourself to be weak and strong.
The difference here will be in % in strong and % in weak (every aspect). And that'd be determined by your actions and behaviour at every situation in your life (experience).
And that's what you should focus on.
Just unconditionally love yourself and have faith, when accepting yourself, you can change yourself, by that you gain real control, with flow.
just an opinion)