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18m first year of first semester in college. Failing two classes. Need Advice - Appa - 11-03-2018
Surprising I even graduated high school with my grades and got into a somewhat decent college, but I've messed up terribly with my first two months of college and I don't know how to fix this situation. I'll be typing a bit of a compacted rant so please try to bear with the terminology being used and try to dissect it as much as you can.
18M first semester of college. Was in a very dark place emotionally/mentally for the first month of school during September(I've dealt with depression, anxiety, & suicidal-thoughts/tendencies - that I never acted upon/let anyone know about) very frequently throughout the entirety of my high-school years. My depression/anxiety are known among my family but only since 2 years ago when I failed out of my first high school due to a similar predicament that I've just put myself into and I'm hoping to fix it.
The whole adjustment process to my new college/dorm-life has gotten me out of my feelings/habits of sadness,depression, suicide, etc. (starting feeling tremendously better in October), wholeheartedly, but I made several huge fuck-ups solely with 2 classes, 1 class being the main fuck-up(Spanning from the literal beginning of September to today).
I'm going to mainly focus on describing the one class, *Economics*, that I've made extremely idiotic decisions in and I'd like advice on how to go about repairing the damage I've dealt to my grades and or status in college. The other class(math) I already know I can fix to the fullest by going to a help center and then explaining my situation in hopes that the teacher will be forgiving, and then if I receive no assistance from him I know that I'll be able to do every assignment from here on out until the end of the semester, which will allow me to to pass 100%.
Basically my status in the *Economics* class is most likely the lowest out of everyone else. I started out by going to every class and doing the initial first 4 assignments till Sept. 9th. Teacher said that he doesn't require you to attend class/he won't take attendance and that you're free as long as you focus on the assignments/quizzes. At first I skipped one class, and then another, and then another, till about 4 classes(at this point it's been 2 weeks of skipping since I only have the class twice a week). I honest to god don't have an excuse for my stupidity in dealing with my approach to the course. Just pure toxic combinations of ignorance and procrastination and so I guess I sort of "blocked" the entire course out of my mind for no general reason? I did none of the online assignments(to date I think there are a total of 30+, just a ballpark, but it's around 25-30).I literally have 0 clue what was going on through my mind throughout all of the estimated *12* days I skipped this one class in particular, but at least I managed to attend every other class on my schedule since the start of classes(i have 4 classes in total, and I've only not been doing work in/going to Economics) No estimate on the amount of quizzes/tests I've missed but hopefully that's low for my situation.
I did have an verbal altercation with father(my main source of "income"?) I mean I'm dependent of his money to put towards my tuition/other expenses in general. Essentially I wasn't on talking terms with him for almost about that entire month in September(we rehashed things at the literal end of September). To actually do any of the assignments/quizzes online you would need to pay for the course/book totaling to $200 at the time. I paid no mind to this as I was in a bout of depression/other symptoms I initially mentioned, and as an addendum to the flames, the argument I had with my father/having contact with no one from my family for the entire month of September( I dorm btw and it's my first time doing so). My procrastination took a turn for the worse and I haven't done a single assignment/shown up for class(except for once a couple of days ago) since Sept. 9th. As I saw no meaning in even attempting to get started in the actual course itself at the point that I was at/was questioning my life's worth and my motivation in general.
So in total 60 days have passed since the course started & I only have 4 assignments done/possible quizzes/tests not taken. I officially just bought the course/online platform package in order to complete the assignments/quizzes and of course they're going to be done BY today/tomorrow at most. Obviously they're past due now.
What are/should be the best course of action for the next few days in order to fix this situation with the one class, specifiically. What is the best way to go about delegating my situation to my professor and or an advisor. Do I just flat out tell them that I procrastinated on all of my assignments over the span of 60 days and that I haven't attended the past 12 days of economics class? I'd really hate to fail this class of all classes, and it's my first semester/first quarter in college.
Again. Sorry for the curt, short sentences and god-awful grammar and really bad plot-sequencing. I'm a terrible story-teller. Wrote this after staying up all night doing work(I'm working on time-management of course). Would really just appreciate any sort of help/advice. Thanks
RE: 18m first year of first semester in college. Failing two classes. Need Advice - q0xd - 05-20-2019
I think it'd be best if you were just honest and just told them you were too depressed and anxious to get anything done. Haven't been in a similar situation in school before so I'm just guessing. But I can totally relate to "blocking" out something that should be done soon, really sucks.
Don't forget to keep in mind that depression makes you think less of yourself and your achievements, also likely making this situation seem far more serious than it is in reality. Most people have empathy, you can likely use this to your advantage here.
Those courses likely aren't going anywhere, work on doing schoolwork when you feel better, if that's possible. Just don't spend your whole day on computer in dark room like me and you'll be good. I guess.Well, hopefully it all goes well for you. Fingers crossed.
I'm sometimes too scared to answer to answer phone calls from stranger.. Not just a little scared but legit feel physically sick and weak. Same with really anywhere with many people or just talking to a stranger. :/