(07-02-2014, 10:48 AM)Uzinero Wrote: Growing Pubes. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

In all seriousness I've never really achieved anything. Everything I've ever come close to achieving I've been fucked out of, gave up on or had to stop because I couldn't afford to finish it. I've came close to achieving a lot and always got screwed up at the last minute somehow. This goes for literally everything but here are some of the biggest examples:

Tried to buy 100,000 bitcoins when they were new for $400 (Was literally in negotiation with a bunch of people wanting to sell all of their BTC). Was convinced they were the future and were going to skyrocket. Didn't have my own bank account and was too young too open one without parents, they didn't understand it so wouldn't let me use my money to do it, despite me practically begging them and them saying I could do what I wanted with my own cash. If I sold those 100k BTC at their peak I would have made around £67 Million and wouldn't be living in this ghetto shithole I've been in since I was born.

When I was in school, I was in the top classes until the end of year 7. In Year 8 they moved me down to the middle classes and I didn't learn anything because I was just redoing all the things I did the year before so I ended up way behing the people in the top class. I had multiple friends in the top classes I compared exam results with, I had the highest of all of them but they were put in the top class instead of me. Didn't find out why until a week before I left the school, turned out they changed the way classes are done in the school, so it depends on where you live and your grades, not just your grades, so even though I had higher grades I was put into the shitty classes because of where I was born.

Left school to do homeschooling because I wasn't learning anything in the lower classes and would buy in the books I needed and teach myself from the books. All of my friends from school just finished their final exams. I'm still far from mine, if I ever reach them. My parents bought me my books for finishing off KS3, but when it came to GCSE they never bought me any books, so I had nothing to learn with. This meant I had around a year of no schooling with my parents bitching at me for not doing any work when they weren't getting me the things I needed to do it, and when I asked them too yelling about how they weren't "Made of money" they've bought me one book so far and still bitch at me for not working a lot, but whenever I bring up needing new books I'm told they're "not made of money" and am constantly yelled at about how I'm "throwing my life away" as if it's my fucking choice to not work when they won't buy the books I need but spend £1000's on new shit for themselves.

Don't mean to be depressing and am probably ranting a bit here, but my life was pretty fucked before it even began. I was born with birth defects that caused me to get singled out and bullied in school, when I went to the teachers about it they started to pick on me too, I've been living in a shitty ghetto area since I was born, and have kept a weapon by my bed since I was 4 years old in case I ever had to kill someone because there's a bus stop outside our house where heroin addicts used to hang out, not to mention we're in the shittiest area of a shitty area, and multiple times have had people try to lockpick our doors. My brother and sister were nice to me only after my Dad left. I have a different Dad to them and the way they always were towards me as a kid has me convinced to this day they hated me since birth just for that. My sister has mental health issues and is suicidal and has a split personality and my mum is a psychotic whore. All I've ever really had was my games as the only release from this fuckhole of a life, and my family wonder why I have maybe one hour maximum a day where I'm not on my computer. Anyway, I'm ranting here and I should probably end this now, but I guess my best achievement so far is resisting the urge every day to jump in front of a train.

(07-02-2014, 10:48 AM)Uzinero Wrote: Growing Pubes. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

In all seriousness I've never really achieved anything. Everything I've ever come close to achieving I've been fucked out of, gave up on or had to stop because I couldn't afford to finish it. I've came close to achieving a lot and always got screwed up at the last minute somehow. This goes for literally everything but here are some of the biggest examples:

Tried to buy 100,000 bitcoins when they were new for $400 (Was literally in negotiation with a bunch of people wanting to sell all of their BTC). Was convinced they were the future and were going to skyrocket. Didn't have my own bank account and was too young too open one without parents, they didn't understand it so wouldn't let me use my money to do it, despite me practically begging them and them saying I could do what I wanted with my own cash. If I sold those 100k BTC at their peak I would have made around £67 Million and wouldn't be living in this ghetto shithole I've been in since I was born.

When I was in school, I was in the top classes until the end of year 7. In Year 8 they moved me down to the middle classes and I didn't learn anything because I was just redoing all the things I did the year before so I ended up way behing the people in the top class. I had multiple friends in the top classes I compared exam results with, I had the highest of all of them but they were put in the top class instead of me. Didn't find out why until a week before I left the school, turned out they changed the way classes are done in the school, so it depends on where you live and your grades, not just your grades, so even though I had higher grades I was put into the shitty classes because of where I was born.

Left school to do homeschooling because I wasn't learning anything in the lower classes and would buy in the books I needed and teach myself from the books. All of my friends from school just finished their final exams. I'm still far from mine, if I ever reach them. My parents bought me my books for finishing off KS3, but when it came to GCSE they never bought me any books, so I had nothing to learn with. This meant I had around a year of no schooling with my parents bitching at me for not doing any work when they weren't getting me the things I needed to do it, and when I asked them too yelling about how they weren't "Made of money" they've bought me one book so far and still bitch at me for not working a lot, but whenever I bring up needing new books I'm told they're "not made of money" and am constantly yelled at about how I'm "throwing my life away" as if it's my fucking choice to not work when they won't buy the books I need but spend £1000's on new shit for themselves.

Don't mean to be depressing and am probably ranting a bit here, but my life was pretty fucked before it even began. I was born with birth defects that caused me to get singled out and bullied in school, when I went to the teachers about it they started to pick on me too, I've been living in a shitty ghetto area since I was born, and have kept a weapon by my bed since I was 4 years old in case I ever had to kill someone because there's a bus stop outside our house where heroin addicts used to hang out, not to mention we're in the shittiest area of a shitty area, and multiple times have had people try to lockpick our doors. My brother and sister were nice to me only after my Dad left. I have a different Dad to them and the way they always were towards me as a kid has me convinced to this day they hated me since birth just for that. My sister has mental health issues and is suicidal and has a split personality and my mum is a psychotic whore. All I've ever really had was my games as the only release from this fuckhole of a life, and my family wonder why I have maybe one hour maximum a day where I'm not on my computer. Anyway, I'm ranting here and I should probably end this now, but I guess my best achievement so far is resisting the urge every day to jump in front of a train.

(07-02-2014, 07:19 PM)Jiggly Wrote: I couldn't even imagine what that would be like...

I may have completed my GCSE's back in 2011 but I got good grades, so if you ever want a hand I'm more than happy to help. Heck, I've probably still got some books somewhere.
What subjects are you studying - out of curiosity?

I'm glad you've kept going though. I didn't know it was legal for them to put you in sets based on where you come from. That's fucked up. I got lucky with my high school education. I went from being the top student of my year group to being "meh average" when I changed schools after year 8. In my case, the only reason that happened was because I joined a grammar school so everyone is smart as fuck there... I was just average of the clever kids. It still knocked my confidence but at least it was a decent reason.

(07-02-2014, 07:32 PM)DarkMuse Wrote: I know this sounds cliche but its true: it gets better. The best advice I can give you is to hold on tight and observe what happens around you. I use to cut alot not from bullies but from hating myself because I wasnt good at making friends. Slowly but surely I started to observe what was going on around me and I realized that it didn't happen to everyone but I wasn't alone. So I hope you pull through man, good luck.

(07-02-2014, 08:50 PM)Aurora Wrote: This honestly made me cry a little. Perseverance is everything though. (No doubt @Cressi has a quote that'll suit.)

(07-02-2014, 09:59 PM)Uzinero Wrote: They're not supposed to be able too, but a drama teacher slipped up to me about it around a week before I left, and I could instantly see from her facial expression she was thinking "Oh fuck" because she wasn't supposed to say anything about it. I was hoping to do GCSE in Core Science, Physics, Chemistry, Maths, English and Business Studies, and was then hoping to do Physics, Chemistry and ICT A Levels so I could get into a decent Uni for either Computer Science or Game Development, but with the way things are going I'm not sure if I'll be able to do that. I've spent most of today searching up decent programming books and finding torrents for them, so hopefully I can learn a decent amount from the books I can torrent online so that even if I don't manage to go the Uni route I can still be good enough to be a games programmer, guess time will tell.



Thanks man, I appreciate the kind words. It's kinda hard to remember sometimes but I just try to remember on really shitty days that it's going to get better at some point if I keep working at it, hopefully I'm right.



Yeah, hopefully I'll be able to use the stuff I find online to start working towards my goals if I can't get the school books, thanks.

(07-02-2014, 10:33 PM)Oni Wrote: The problem with people wanting to get into the video game industry, is that they have trouble being realistic.

When I was considering the university I'm currently at, I got to meet with the department head of Computer Science. I remember, there was a kid there who was interested in game development... with little or no experience programming. His parents asked the department head how possible it would be to leave the university and work at a company like EA. He read out statistics from the Bureau of Labor Statistics and a few other places, which obviously revealed how unlikely it was. I think meeting with the head of the department opened his eyes a little and needless to say, I didn't see him on campus in the future.

Obviously, if you're talented and determined enough, you might make it. But for a lot of people, that's not the case.

Edit: Oh, and another tip. If you are coming from the UK and their standards are different for Computer Science, just go to university in the United States. There are plenty of universities that love foreigners and would be happy to accept you. I don't think any American universities have requirements on what courses you take in high school.

(07-02-2014, 07:31 PM)Crypt Wrote: Jacking off in under 30 seconds

(07-02-2014, 09:22 PM)Six Wrote: Coming out at all about any portion of my identity or sexuality.

I was born gay. But never told anyone until a few years ago that until 16, I was not interested in girls at all, once I found out they had different 'equipment' than guys. After 16, I went more and more towards girls. Being pansexual, I'm sexually attracted to whomever I am, but I prefer girls for the reason that they're more emotional than men are generally, and I love emotion.

And as far as being transgendered, its still not public fact, but here, my class mates, my girlfriend, and some of my closest friends are all who know. Very fearful to speak to my family about it still.
But, I've known since an early age, not quite sure when. I've hated myself since, for being as I am, so I know its not a phase type thing such as my little brother went through. He's more interested in just cross dressing.

Both are things that have been difficult to come out about, but I've started to reach that point as I get more and more confident in myself, and more support from others.
It may not be much to you guys when you compliment my appearance as was done in the PYP thread, but it helps me more than I can ever say to feel supported like that.

(07-02-2014, 09:59 PM)Uzinero Wrote: They're not supposed to be able too, but a drama teacher slipped up to me about it around a week before I left, and I could instantly see from her facial expression she was thinking "Oh fuck" because she wasn't supposed to say anything about it. I was hoping to do GCSE in Core Science, Physics, Chemistry, Maths, English and Business Studies, and was then hoping to do Physics, Chemistry and ICT A Levels so I could get into a decent Uni for either Computer Science or Game Development, but with the way things are going I'm not sure if I'll be able to do that. I've spent most of today searching up decent programming books and finding torrents for them, so hopefully I can learn a decent amount from the books I can torrent online so that even if I don't manage to go the Uni route I can still be good enough to be a games programmer, guess time will tell.

(07-02-2014, 10:33 PM)Oni Wrote: Edit: Oh, and another tip. If you are coming from the UK and their standards are different for Computer Science, just go to university in the United States. There are plenty of universities that love foreigners and would be happy to accept you. I don't think any American universities have requirements on what courses you take in high school.

(07-03-2014, 01:34 AM)Tarew Wrote: Building my gaming PC, my grades in school (this year I averaged 100% in 3 classes: english, social studies and science) and just in general my behavior in my day to day life. Nothing so far I've encountered in life has made me depressed like a lot of teenagers get, I'm generally a happy person and I am very likable. Pretty much all I am proud of, though I do plan on doing a lot of stuff in my life during high school!