[coup de grâce]

Basically my slutty ISP assigned me to run with an obsolete horse-and-buggy router (with a proprietary gateway software limited as parcel in the cemetery) without any filled in silicone to the holes to patch publicly disclosed vulnerabilities zillions of years ago. (at the end of the day there are some known exploits in a wild which every knuckle-dragger can perform baby step-by-step tutorial like it is make up for a scarlet schoolgirl)

in meanwhile something new looms on my horizon, there is an actual existence of a legal backdoor implanted by an ISP so expeditious service wont go to their clients home for every loopy bleep that stumble on. Instead they extend technical support on a confidential remote ports. (which is great god damned shit ass and giggle if you are retiree grandpa citizen that essentially plays spider solitaire and looks through outdoor life hunting, fishing & survival tips, gun reviews magazine articles)
After reading terms, service and privacy policy, I have no right to adapt and modify hardware, software and firmware for my expectations. Since I was about to flash a firmware with an open source. (or straightforwardly adapting my own equipment)

Honestly I am quite upset and sure suppose out there might be fruitcake psychopath abusing  through these rifts to lurk, which really is driving me loony throughout the canyon of brain curves. Ending down mentally deranged, crashed and died in a deep fissure. Almost each and every fucking day overthinking.

All of my operations and economic experiments are placed on hold to rest for a while, sad to say I am completely lost in a dark deadlock.